Somewhere in pinterest or on facebook... or just randomly over the internet I read that if you keep a grateful attitude to life you are bound to be happier.
As thanksgiving has just passed us by (not a very common thing here in Mexico btw). I took a moment to think about what could I be thankful for this year. A year that you may say has not been a very good one. In fact, it has probably been one of the worse ones.
And so, as this year is fading away, I do not wish to continue it being like it has been, at least not for long.
"This too shall pass" said the mysterious hotel worker at Julia Robert's My best friend's wedding character. And although I can't do much about the given circumstances I will always have the power to choose how to react to it. I am pretty much trying to keep my sh*t together until this -whatever it is- has passed. Nothing is ever permanent so I pray for it to be over soon.
It feels like a migraine or a roller coaster, you know it will end but while it lasts it is too long to endure.
Said that, I will have to admit that while it sucked big time. I am never going to be the same because of it. I will actually, be better because of what I learnt.
So there, things to be grateful:
1) I have a beautiful, strong, healthy, loving son who is affectionate -most of the time- and love very, very... (sigh) .. very much!
2) I have some pretty awesome friends, some of them are very wise, some of them incredibly patient and others have tons of optimism that can cheer up anybody, including my cynic self.
3) Slowly I am making a home for my little one. I have managed to administrate my income enough to survive and get some furniture. May not have a lot of money in my pocket and that worries me tons but I am thankful that until today we have some type of stability.
4) I am thankful of my workplace; partially because it is my own environment but also because I have been in a position of receiving so much love, affection, admiration and ... pretty great times.
5) I have learnt to be me. I have allowed myself to shine through my own essence and it has been fantastic. I am still working on the self - esteem falls out but I am seeing things through a very different perspective now.
6) I have learnt a lot about people. Either I was too wrapped up on my own ego (something we all carry around) that I took things a lot more personal back then.
If I had a disagreement with a friend, a taxi driver or the regular jack; my head will not have a stop at "Omg.. what a b*tch!".
Now, it doesn't mean I don't get angry, I do, but I let things go a lot quicker by understanding the person: putting myself in their position and blessing them.
It is very true what they say. If someone is nasty with you, is not you, its them and they are troubled. So.. don't get involve, just love them and try to help if possible. Most of the time, help won't be well received, but again, as previously said, you can only do what you choose to do with the given circumstances. Acceptance is peace.